Seeking Justice
I am still alive! Things are GREAT!!
My new learning for this month.
I was wondering about justifying my anger, or any thought or emotion for that matter. I was thinking about why I think it's ok to be and act mad whenever I want. A few weeks ago, we were doing our nightly cleaning routine and, like most often, I was ranting and raving about what needed to get done. I was upset and letting everyone know it. Afterwards, Chris and I were talking and....in a VERY loving way Chris looked at me and said "I'm not sure what makes you think it's ok or you have the right to act like that whenever you want." It was like a light bulb went on. Oh my, I realized how in EVERY way that I can, I DO justify acting angry or being angry whenever I feel angry. I ALWAYS have a reason.
Later on that week, we were in church and the lesson was on forgiveness. I was VERY excited about this lesson as this is a subject that I still need LARGE amounts of help with. A sweet Hispanic woman shared her story with us of how someone had hurt one of her children. She stated that it feels impossible to forgive anyone who hurt or cause pain to her children in anyway. As she was praying about this and asking the Lord how to help her deal with the situation, He told her it is NOT her job to hold on to her anger or worry about what will happen to the people who hurt her children. She said He told her she was His daughter and these people were also His children. Just like she disciplines her children, He made the request that she let Him discipline His children. ]
Again, another light bulb went on for me. The word justify is merely an extension of the word justice. I realized that when I justify ANYTHING....any emotion, action, WHATEVER....that I was taking God's justice into my hands and taking it away from Him. WHOA! HOLD UP! I have ALOT of repenting to do. How many times had I decided that I knew better than Him? I'm telling him that I can be anger or act whatever way I want because I know someone else's thoughts or even worse....their HEART better than Him! Well, I know for a fact, I DON'T!
So, I now spent time during my prayers repenting for the 1000's of times I decided I knew better than Him. This may seem so minute or small to rest of you, like OH Rachel, come on....I already knew this but for me, I am forever changed. WOW! I'm so thankful for the power of forgiveness. As you can see I have years of taking God's justice into my own hands, to ask forgiveness for. Thank GOD, I can!
Abundant peace,
Rachel
My new learning for this month.
I was wondering about justifying my anger, or any thought or emotion for that matter. I was thinking about why I think it's ok to be and act mad whenever I want. A few weeks ago, we were doing our nightly cleaning routine and, like most often, I was ranting and raving about what needed to get done. I was upset and letting everyone know it. Afterwards, Chris and I were talking and....in a VERY loving way Chris looked at me and said "I'm not sure what makes you think it's ok or you have the right to act like that whenever you want." It was like a light bulb went on. Oh my, I realized how in EVERY way that I can, I DO justify acting angry or being angry whenever I feel angry. I ALWAYS have a reason.
Later on that week, we were in church and the lesson was on forgiveness. I was VERY excited about this lesson as this is a subject that I still need LARGE amounts of help with. A sweet Hispanic woman shared her story with us of how someone had hurt one of her children. She stated that it feels impossible to forgive anyone who hurt or cause pain to her children in anyway. As she was praying about this and asking the Lord how to help her deal with the situation, He told her it is NOT her job to hold on to her anger or worry about what will happen to the people who hurt her children. She said He told her she was His daughter and these people were also His children. Just like she disciplines her children, He made the request that she let Him discipline His children. ]
Again, another light bulb went on for me. The word justify is merely an extension of the word justice. I realized that when I justify ANYTHING....any emotion, action, WHATEVER....that I was taking God's justice into my hands and taking it away from Him. WHOA! HOLD UP! I have ALOT of repenting to do. How many times had I decided that I knew better than Him? I'm telling him that I can be anger or act whatever way I want because I know someone else's thoughts or even worse....their HEART better than Him! Well, I know for a fact, I DON'T!
So, I now spent time during my prayers repenting for the 1000's of times I decided I knew better than Him. This may seem so minute or small to rest of you, like OH Rachel, come on....I already knew this but for me, I am forever changed. WOW! I'm so thankful for the power of forgiveness. As you can see I have years of taking God's justice into my own hands, to ask forgiveness for. Thank GOD, I can!
Abundant peace,
Rachel
posted by TheTalley at 11:55 AM
4 Comments:
Thank you for sharing. That is so true. Hope all is well, hi from Janae and I. Hugs!
Great insight Rachel. I have a lot of repenting to do myself. Thank you for leading the way in so many things - I love you dearly.
:) Of course, my absolutely amazing, spiritual friend. I forgot that i need a TOWEL to wipe my tears every time I read your posts. :) I LOVE you. How are you?
We're doing so good! Life has been overwhelming at times, but we are learning to take it one moment at a time and stay in the present. I think about you often. I hope you are well. I sure love and miss you!!
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